its been a long time since i've really posted anything, ahahah..cos well i dont have much time and i kinda dont like to spend too much time online..its been so bad, my email account go shut down...so if u r reading this blog and u have emailed me, forgive me cos i prob lost all your emails to me!!!=(
anyway, to all who are waiting to know wats up with me, well im now in OCS..yup..i shant say much(cos these walls have ears)//heh but anyway i havr to say its very different there...and i just hope tt i can come out a better man..

speaking of man...i think somewhere along the way ive lost track of my goal to be "a man after God's own heart". think the desire is still there, though i dunnno why, but the fire has died down somehow..its kinda the feeling like..when ur running around, doing all sorts of stuff for Ns,church or yourself..you wana jus sit down and rest..but when u have the chance to, you kinda keep looking for sth to do cos' you're just not used to sitting still, or being still in God's presence. my greatest comfort now its really tt God will not love me any More or Less, simply cos His love is perfect, even when i'm not. im really relying on his grace to bring me thru this time in my life now..and i hope tt in future i can encourage my brothers who enter NS...yup..

right now, ive come to the conclusion that only a life dedicated to a cause is worth living..ive decided to give my life to serving God..or rather im convinced tt that is wat i wanna do...i guess the realising of that wont be as easy, but hey im a work in progress arent i?heh. a

anyways, a huge shout out to Dawn, Corrie, James, and all who are overseas..miss u guys a lot a lot...sorry i cant really mail u all..pretty busy nowadays.=) also to crystal , liting...im sorry i havent had a chance to meet up..believe me..i think of doing so every week..but time and gravity have teamed up against me for some strange reason. actually this shout out is to everyone tt hasnt heard from me for a long time, really hope by some divine intervention, we can meet up again soon..take care all. thats all for now. =)
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