ok this has been my first post for some time... well recently, i havent been doing well for my Quiet time, and i guess my view of why i do it,etc etc has become a little bit 'wrong'... someone asked me, "did moses want to go free the israelites?"... my answer was no, but he obeyed God.. but still i wasnt comvinced that i had to do quiet time even though i didn't feel like it... it feels meaningless you know what i mean? its kinda like how you're obliged to go out with a friend. but then i realised that this isn't really obligation(to some extent it feels so), but its called Obedience. i think thats different.

i guess because i've been in this world too long(only 18 years and 7Months!) slowy without noticing it, i've(we've) unwillingly/willingly conformed to the ways and thoughts of this world. after reading a book called "the fear of the Lord" (am still reading by the way), i've realised that very often i have subjected God, and reduced His glory to one measured in terms of sinful man. In other words, an incorruptible God, His commands, and laws have been reduced to that of corruptible man.. its unfair if you think about it..its not just unfair, its kinda wrong. the kinda wrong such as walking past a little child picking food from the floor, and doing nothing about it.
sure, i think those who don't know God personally, or havent come to know Him at all would think this is a comment from some Holy-moley guy. but i know i feel that thinking that way is kinda as good as wanting to change the whole dynamics of existence, of life, of the world/universe, prob equivalent to trying to reverse time.

just imagine, the President of US, not even him, maybe just your favourite celebrity, or soccer star or you know wat, principal... if he were to step into your school, or ,mayb you're at a conference or sth.. i'm quite sure everyone would give that fella some due respect. but we havent really been doing that for God, or mayb we have, but subjecting Him the Glory, the holiness we 'imagine'( i.e. human glory) and we know humans aren't perfect(all the best to anyone who thinks he/she is perfect) and in other words, this glory we allude to God isnt perfect at all. He is the King of kings, Lord of lords, someone way above and hierachy, cos there is nobody who can challnege him, sure they can try, but if it were me, i wouldnt even dare thinking of it. He is the one who made the sunsets that we cannot even think of engineering, but instead can merely enjoy, and smile at with our loved ones. He made the sun, that gives us light so we won't crash or fall into things,yet finds the right time to conceal it to bring us the coolness of night- when all we can do is just take it in and say "hey, thats how the world works." well guess what?God is the one whose hand(notice i said hand, cos i think one arm is enough for God to accomplish this) is behind this. i mean NOBODy created God, He just simply exists. He said to Moses "I AM who I AM". have you ever met anyone who simply just exists, Because?just BECAUSE. even the greatest of humans couldnt be made unless their parents made plans to in the first place. i guess thats how awesome i think God is. and unfortunately, we, I havent been giving Him the Glory and love and praise and honor due His name.

after reading this, you'd may think, man, its a wonder how God would even allow me to be in the same place where He dwells, i havent given Him the respect at all!if i had done sth in disrespect of the principal, and she knew, i'd probably try to aviod her(you know what i mean?). but God who is completely and highly 100% capable of destroying us( or in IT terms, deleting us) He can. Now. but no.. i think its just amazing that He not only lets us carry on with our disgusting, sometimes shameful actions and thoughts, though its really hurts Him simply becuase He is not disgusting OR shameful, but instead He sacrificed someone to give us a chance to be made new. i mean, we didnt even ask for it. He did it automatically, on His own accord, out of love.Love.

I don't know about you, but i guess what i feel now is that out of a thankful heart,and even love for God's love for me, the least i can do is let Him continue loving me, and try to obey what He tells me to do. ok, mayb thats not the least i could do. i think the least would be just to let Him know i acknowledge Him, and just let Him into my life.well,thats me. i don't know about you.
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