ok this is/was/has been the day of rsults... to be honest, i was really nervous, esp when i was out with ruth in the morning.. u can ask her,well she told me she was fine(which is a lie cos she was crying in school)...yup and well, at some point, i was like.. ok i think i really gotta just trust God, and know tt whatever happens is in His sovereign will. yup, then later on the way to school, to calm myself, i kinda asked myself, why do i have this hope, or confidence.. and i stumbled upon an answer while i was in the midst of envy of the likes of brandon crystal and corrie, who did rather well(congrats!), yea and i guess God revealed it to me through the brain He gave me tat, He has blessed each of us differently, some are more academic, some less, and i wasnt too sure where i stood, but i knew that ultimately, you know.. it fulfills God's plan.. and as cliche as it sounds.. i meditated on Jer 29:11, and realised that hey, i dont think at any point a verse can be OVER USED.. you know?

well, to cut the long story short.. God has really met my expectation really perfectly. its fits so nicely i realised i dont know if it has sunk in, and i feel like i'm in a dream. yup.. i know sometime back, i wondered how nice it would be to get A B B A, cos then its as good as like God's imprint on ur grades.. and i know for a long time it has been my hearts desire. so i had two expectations.1) 4 As(probably wont get, but nice to wish) 2)2As 2Bs ( i know i can get, but wah like striking toto!!) yup, and eeach time i prayed, i said, God i really hope i get 4As but Lord, i ust pray that You may grant me the desire of my heart well, i think to say that God is good is an understatement.. God is amazing.. when i looked at my slip.. i was like ok good, no Cs.... no Ds... OH MY GOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God you did it. and even up till now while i type this, i think only slowly i see how amazing this is. God has answered my personal request. you know how cool that is? my own request, Me. me. why me? but God i am so so so grateful, and Lord, i want to tell everyone You are so good, though i fear many may say that my praise comes only cos of my grades, but God You know my heart.

well, i know that some of you guys prob didnt mean expectations.. but i guess, at the end of the day, i won't say it dont matter.. but i guess when we lie on our deathbeds.. we're not gonna say: " hey hand me my A level slip... oh man wah those were some good grades..", but i think we're gonna ask for sth more..

God is good, God is sovereign, above all and at the end of the day, it comes down to trusting that we're in His hands, that He is our Father who loves us, and desires to give us the best, but also knows that our thoughts are not His thoughts, and also that we should lean not on our own understanding, and not to forget that if we sinful creatures will not give our children rocks if they ask for bread, how much more the Holy One, the Great I AM, the One who calls Himself our Heavenly Father.

friends, i hope that this has been an encouragement, wherever you're at spiritually. i believe that we're so precious to God, YOU are so precious to God.. draw near to Him during this season of your life. God bless. " )
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