well,i thnk i'm rediscovering wat a relationship, friendship, with God means. i think i've kinda forgotten like God's unconditional, amazing love... and recently i bought this CD, integrity's NEXT... or sth like that... and there's this song called friend of God, and as i sang along.. i suddenly felt this great thrill of like. HEY! God loves me! i dont have to do anything, but He automatically loves me.. its so amzing.. still, of course..everyday its a process of learning and understanding what living in God's love is like... to enjoy each moment with Him. but i've kinda been facing this problem... its like if u spend the entire day talking to God, 'walking' with Him... then how different is quiet time? i mean, what should you expect from that 1/2 hr, or one hour... If any of you know, please tag me k!hahahaha, we all need the support and guidance from each other.

Oh yea, and for those of you who don't know, i got pass the first round of singapore idol! do pray for me that i may get in the second round of course... but more importantly, that i guess, all the popularity and stuff doesn't get to me. yesterday during the YAg talk on finances, we kinda went to this part about the parable of the talents... where the argument was to make use of the talents that God gives you...i thought i understood it all..but i think i've neglected this very important part. that when the master came back, none of the servants kept the 'invested talents' and its fruit to themselves. i guess if i should go far for this Singapore idol thing, i really wanna use it to touch ppl's hearts, and even try to reach out to them. i think from META ive also learnt that conversion is not our duty. our duty is simply to bring God's love and msg to ppl. God does the rest. do you realy think we can convert ppl ourselves?ahaha. yea. i hope that God can use me to do His work. of course, i must make myself use-able first. just a while back i read about god telling moses to strike the stone/rock, so that water would flow. and this Impt point came out : that what we, as servants can do, is in obedience, strike the rock. God makes the water flow. that is sth we can never ever do as humans.yup.haha interesting huh?

i think what i wanna say with this post is that, for those of u out there, if you're feeling dry, or distant from God.. i know its tough. really. but don't fall, or move away. stand firm. trust in God's amazing love(i'm trying to as well!), and tat if He's willing to become one of us, let the hands He created beat Him up, torture Him, put Him on the cross, then i think we can no doubt say tat God would rather die than live w/o us. literally. we probably shouldnt base God's love on what we understand from human love i guess.. cos' God created love. He is love. and only He can show us what love is really all about.


AND..... for your benefit. " )

Who am I that You are mindful of me
That You hear me when I call
Is it true that You are thinking of me
How You love me it's amazing

I am a friend of God
I am a friend of God
I am a friend of God
He calls me friend
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