not sure where i am now, im my walk.. i think pretty much feels as if i'm cruising along. just told angela a few days ago(or was it yesterday), that we have different seasons in life.. and i think i have just gone through a season of blooming(sounds rather girly HAH!) yup, and i wont say this is winter now, but i feel as if im kinda like just going along.. hope i havent lost my fire or anything like tt, but i think partly God may be teaching me to have some silence and solitude, which i so badly lack.. i realised i can sit still for more than 3 seconds..which is quite sad..hmm.yes.

thinking back, i kinda regret not staying for the sermon on silence and solitude.. could have learnt much.. but cos of SSS, i havent been able to stay for service msg for a long time..to think that at the start of the year i was afraid i could sit thru the msg!!!! now i dont even get the chance to.

random things are coming thru my mind.. one of them is results! oh man i sure hope to do well, but see how it goes.. stay posted to read about my joy/sadness whatever it is!yup.. and also i think i have been thinking about God's view on love and the world's view on love, its very different(yes i have been reading i kissed dating goodbye), ya and i think i really wanna make it right.. i want not only to expereince that fullness of a true God-driven relationship, but also friendship with every other friend/sister/brother... yup. i thnk i have been selfish in some ways... like how sometimes when i go out i pick a place convenient for me, or am unwilling to walk witht the person to a certain place, cos its far to go home.. i really DO wanna be more giving i guess.. and i think i have kinda forgotten about the kind of depth that i want in conversations with my friends, keeping in touch with their spiritual lives as well as what they are doing.. which is a lot a lot tougher cos' i guess it knaws(DID I SPELL CORRECTLY?) at your sprit when you talk about it.. which i guess sometimes causes ppl to become broken. but its good, cos then God can build us up again.- the right way.

apologies if its hard to follow, im just typing out of my... out of my.. train of thoughts. at least i still have punctuation!i just realised tt my blog is a bit messy..hahah oh well. roxanne help!!! i treat you to lunch AND dinner, what a good deal!

ok i think i need to bathe.. im quite smelly.haha
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