ok, im guilty... havent updated.hahah. well the past few days have been hectic i guess...i think its really God's will for me to stay home today. and rest.was intending to go jogging... but then, it started raining. anyways i think its really beautiful that i can just be in my bro's room with my siblings... one playing maple story... another playing polly pocket...guess who is playing what.hahahah. think i have been complaining a lot and having a really bad attitude about things. i'm sorry Lord.. i want to be more like Jesus, and sometimes i fail. but I trust in your love, that allows me to approach you in confidence. i've been playing for worship for SSS and YAG, i think i need a break, just as jane reminded me, in case of burn out. i think so often we get too caught up in serving, our second love.. that we forget our first love. just as its said in revelation.. Lord, help me to not forget you, that you should be the only God, the only one i worship in my heart..

i'm really thankful still, cos' no matter what happens each day, i think the great thing is to know God is with me and that the greatest joy of each day is simply to live it with Jesus... just as the mission team meeting on sat reminded me/us, ever so often we look forward to sth..(NS for me, yes i AM crazy) such that we are so blind, and miss whats in front of us right now. savour every moment.. we're never gonna get it back. sounds easy? not really, but as long as we ask, God WILL answer, i believe. i think simple things such as the afternoon breeze, the sky, the sun, the flowers that dance,the wind that whistles.. makes u sometimes just wanna say a whole lot of beautiful things to God, and it all culminates as u stand in awe and the only words that seem to come out are : "thank you Lord, you are holy. you are good. hallelujah."
its really amazing, and i yearn to experience such speechlessness again,and i wish the same for those who read this. yet sometimes we dont offer God the chance to bless us this way. i remember someone saying once(claim prize at counter if its you who said this), that Psalm 46:10 is not a suggestion, not a, 'try to in your free time'... its almost a command. we need it.

"Be still, and know that I am God."

-Psalm 46:10
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