hahahaha i dont know why im using this title, has no meaning, but i saw it so i just used la! i think i'm gonna sleepsoon. haven't been sleeping well lately.. sleeping at one-ish,WAH tiring man... and my job, well i dont know if i shoudl quit, today i looked out the window during lesson, and the sun was bright and nice, and i was like thinking,... I SHOULD BE OUT THERE JOGGINGSWIMMING and doing all sorts of coolder stuff than being with kiddos who call each other names like well, "Lucy" and "silly billy"...

ok, on a different note.. my walk with God has been strange. i think its one of those periods of dryness... or maybe i'm just not putting in effort to spend enough time with God. perhaps ive been too busy, i have failed to spend time in silence and solitude i guess...

O Lord, i dont know where i am now, i feel close, yet far from you at the same time.. but God,i still love you, and i trust in your love, that you will never let go of me, and i know you're walking beside me though i can't see. perhaps, its Your footprints that make their markings in the sand, carrying me. teach me Lord, how to just jump into your arms of grace.. thank you for your love Father. i trust in its unconditionality(if there is such a word), and i just am grateful, that you are there Jesus to clean up the grim parts of my heart, like how You washed Your disciples feet. do cleanse me Lord. in Jesus Name, Amen.



"man is born broken. he lives by mending. the grace of God is glue." - eugene o neill
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